I dont know what to do. I used to sit up at these hours just to keep seeing you.
I dont want to stop loving you, but its what you want. Need?
I dont know…. how to do what you want.
I dont want to believe youve given up.
Is there still a chance, am I just being me? Im scared of drowning in hope, but if I stop hoping, what then….
I guess I lose you.
Fuck sake, I want you to smile like you do in my head.
But me loving you is making you, not happy.
Why wont you let me change that.
I dont know how to not love you, not easily.
I wish you would trust me, even if I am wrong.
Do what you want….. Do you want?
Im terrified im the only one if us who wants this to work.
What do you want.
What do you need.
I love you